A series of unfortunate events....

I was doing sooo bloody well till sat hit and a series of unfortunate events..
1: we were asked out for brunch, to this battle I brought common sense and I can do this, battle won, had a scone and a bagel with jam.. not bad approx 600 calories for brekkie and lunch..

2: shopping all day with friend and small child (all off the cusp) was ok had small frozen yog and nothing else.. was ok...

3: dinner with same friends and this is where I forgot my army and I lost big time... I forgot common sense and eating for fuel not fun, I also brought I didn't eat enough today I am starving along with me. I lost.. was obliterated by my own choice to stuff my face with dinner (I just over ate with this there was nothing "bad" in roast chicken and salad and bread.

4: chippies and lollies.. again.. self control and sense had left the building and I over ate again..

5: dessert, by this time the pattern had hit and I was on a role soo I kept going..


Sunday.. resolve do not over eat.. I went to the movies and I had a small dinner all within the daily allowance of food.. then this fucken huge blow out (sorry but swear words are needed).
I ate : ( I am detailing this for only myself) Huge piece of bread with peanut butter, one bounty bar, 1/3 a packet of chips and a bag of lollies... hence I am now over two kilos heavier than I was on Friday.

I am unsure how it happened it just snow balled, bad choice after bad choice.

I am however slowing this speeding carage and getting back on again I need to work on my weekends I always have done, I AM GOING TO TRACK every morsel that goes into this mouth weather that makes me over calories or not I will track it.

I will get back on this horse I CHOOSE not to let this beat me.


Lou, the lollies are in the house as Phil buys them and I normally stay away from them. On sat though we were out and they were part of the food on offer so I ate them. I need to stay away from it, think I maybe addicted to sugar at the moment I crave it all the time. Its wrong and tomorrow will be the start of a lolly free and chocolate free period in my life.. 10 days to detox!!

Vic xox

Taking time to appreciate the small things

Today was the one year anniversary of my trainer's daughters passing. To honour this day she held a memorial balloon release, it was amazing and very very much a slap in the face for me who takes things for granted a little, it reminded me to love the people who I care for deeply and passionately and not to take it for granted that they are here with me.

I love being apart of today and thank the butterfly princess for reminding me to love like there is no tomorrow.

Weight loss wise it has also reminded me this is a journey and a way of living not a life sentence, if that makes any sense. The weight will come off how ever fast it wants to as long as I am consistent with my eating and exercise it will go down each week. This I am doing and I am getting very close to my first goal set :)
We will see tomorrow if I achieve this.

One day at a time, one choice at a time, this is my life and I will live it to the fullest.

Take care all and just remind the people you love that you do care and appreciate them.

Vic xox

Doing ok...

Today I decided to do 2 different types of exercise, I walked 3.5 kms and went to 90 mins of Tae Kwon Do training. It has made me feel amazing, and again I know I am getting back to being me after all the turbulence that has been my life over the last 7 weeks.

I have been good with food and the weekend was the best one I have had there was no HUGE blow out just a small 200 gram gain, I was aiming to stay the same so not to bad, this I can improve on next week.

Monday - lawns
Tuesday - walk and TKD
Wednesday - trainer
Thursday - TKD
Friday - 5 km walk

That's the plan for this week.
I would like to see 94. something on Friday but that's a huge ask, but hey one day one choice at a time.

My boy is doing well, he is trying and that moving more he will get there he loves TKD and it attempting to build his fitness by going for a walk or two a week as well. He will get there I should take some photos of him. Vic xox

700 grams ....

This week I was fabulous from Monday to Friday (this will change for net week) and I have lost 700 grams, I personally thought I would lose more as I have been good since Monday.. I sat and thought I wonder how much it would have been if I had done what you are meant to do for 7 days instead of 5, how much close to my goal I would be. SO that is what I am going to do this week, I am going to eat within my calories and exercise all week Saturday through till Friday.. as that is what this is about a lifestyle not a Monday to Friday thing.

I am happy with my 700 grams for this week, next week lets see if I can kick its ass!!!
Since I made my chart and started to track with my trainer weekly I have lost 2.8 kilos in four weeks, definatly better than a gain. I have also not gained in the last four weeks. Something is working there, but lets make it work a little harder!!!


Vic xox

Goals, to get me to goal...

I have set goals in terms of weights I want to be in a certain time frame.

First goal:
Under 95 - 30 November 2009

Second goal:
Under 90 - 31 December 2009 ( going home 2nd of Jan for a few days)

Third goal:
Under 85 - 30 January 2010

Fourth goal:
80 - 82 kilos - 28 February 2010...... GOAL ( for now it will be how I feel in my skin and not a number for me).


I am feeling more positive since I accepted my new job and now things are in "order" a little more I only have this and normal stuff to concentrate on, and that I can cope with well. My goals are up there in "amount to lose" but I can do this, have done it before and can do it again.

Phil and I are off for a walk tonight.. second one for him this week.. it will be shorter than my normal 5 km but I am soo happy to just be doing it with him, we are going to walk around a huge field and take our dogs.

Sat - free
Sun - lawns and 3.5 km walk
Mon - 3 km walk
Tues Tae
Wed - walk
Thurs tae
Friday- trainer

That is my week.. I am pleased with it!!

So far have lost 400 grams this week.. looking forward to about a 1 kilo in total.. but lets see.!!

Vic xox

Weekends are really not my good points

Aggghh me and weekends are bad.. I just lose self control.. its stupid I am soo strict during the week and the walla the weekend comes and crazy irrational lady takes over.

What am I going to do about this....... I am going to take the freaking control back.. it is my choices and my life and I need to be in control. I am going to plan my weekends and allow myself to have an extra little bit in the evenings as this is where I let things "go". So I will work on this..

Some people will be saying just do it.. I like to live as well I am 26.. BUT I need to also stop losing and gaining the same 2-3 kilos its getting a little over the top.

Vic xox

Awsome day!!

Photos taken this morning before the interview, of the job that I got. YESSSS GOT IT !!!!

I have tracked today even though I am over, I have tracked its fab better than last weekend one step at a time.

Vic xox